School tomorrow and then I"m done for the week. After neglecting Tuesday I really hope this graphic novel I had to make works out. Also, American Government ugh. Whatever, discussing sovereign wealth funds is totally on my to do list.

Also, I told my mom about transferring to UM and she seemed, oddly accepting. Too accepting. She just kept implying I pretty much couldn't do it and that I would be away from everything I know. Whatever, mom. I'll be alright.

So whatever happens there, we will see. Trying to decide where else to apply to transfer as well, but unsure. 

I've been trying to tone down my Michael Fred love, but am failing due to recent discoveries about his lisp and Escalade and the activities that ensued. Confused.

But, I've got a play for class tomorrow and had to write something about a life changing event.

( long and kinda lame )

In other news, loving T.I.'s new album.

i haven't updated this in forever and i don't know who uses this anymore. but, life is so easy these days with school and stuff. this is pretty much a pity update lj, cuz i feel bad for u.

need to watch gossip girl right this very moment and house is in the mailbox.

So I guess I've been, let's say, not content. I'm not all depressed or anything, but I'm not really happy either. I was just sitting here staring at Sydney Mito of all people's myspaces and thought to be myself, "Gee, I really hate high school. Why didn't I ever realize this before?". I mean, I was never 'OH GEE WOW' about it, but man, it really sucks. I really only go to see my friends and so I don't fail and fuck myself over for college. Guess what? I got into college, a damn fucking good one, and they sent in my midyear report with a pretty damn good report. So why the fuck should I care? Is this really late senioritis or something?

I guess there is just nothing for me in high school anymore. I'm stuck with the same people I've been with for years, some 3, some 6. I don't want to take required classes anymore and have to sit through ridiculous lunches with people who are idiots. I don't really want to do anything, but sit home every day and read. I want to study Regency England and the royal family and anything remotely historical. I want to learn about the way people lived when guys weren't jerks and royalty was royalty and there was something to be said for public decorum. I don't care about half the shit people talk about. I'm tired of it and I'm bored. Really, really bored.

I want to get myself buried in a book or lost in a museum so I can think about a society way before my time so I can stop thinking about the one I'm stuck with now.


I'm so frustrated!

I am so, so, so sick. I have been for over a week now and I'm really not getting better. I feel fine for like, 3 hours at a time at night and when I wake up the next day I'm dead. I haven't been to school all week and I just find myself watching old episodes of Part of Five on On Demand. I have nothing better to do. I'm not hungry and my throat is killing me because of this ridiculous cough.

Also, if Christian does not win Project Runway tonight, I might cry.

I got into college. Seattle University here I come! Well, now I have to wait for UW. Let's keep hoping?

Why am I even taking it again? I'll do better, but all my colleges have received scores already. Lame. Haven't studied even.

Just spent the last like 5 hours with Bryan Andi Matt King Steven Stovall and John Williams. It was fantastic.

Um. Let's thank Corey for this. Watch the whole thing.




Try and tell me you can't believe this.

Last night my party was fun, at least until Cort just showed up. I Am Legend was terrifying. It was a giant mix of emotions. But, overall the party was pretty fun. Bryan and Andi stayed until 1:30 or so and everyone else went home way before that.

Other news. I've lost 20lbs. and I didn't even know it.

I just turned in my UW Application! I'm so scared. I will die if I don't get in. I want to go there pretty bad. Or Seattle U. Not really WWU, but hey that is how it goes.

Maybe seeing August Rush later?

I was sad. I spent all of lunch crying today. Mrs. Glodowski decided I wasn't a good enough student for her to write a recommendation letter for. Apparently by project wasn't good enough and I didn't focus enough at the end of the year when there were only 4 of us in the class. It's my fault isn't it? Well, great. Now who do I get one from? I don't know. It's going to be Tower and Bennett probably. Awesome. I'm so stressed out over college and essays and math and I just want it all to be over with. I hate it. I have to go to work now.

Lately all I can think is that the only thing, the one thing, I've ever wanted is for the people I care about to love me just as much as I love them.

That's the only thing.

I love this time of year. The sky is dark and cloudy and it doesn't rain or sprinkle. It just..mists. I love it dearly. But, things are looking up at school. Seemed to have done well on a math test and I'm going out to lunch with Ryan. I have to pay him back for when he skipped 5th to hang out with me last week. Seems Ms. Sussex found out and gave him a 0 on the test he missed. Oops.


He knows it was worth it.

Lately my life is completely focused around work. I wake up every day and put on the same blue shirt that confirms that I am a Molbak's employee. I spend my day behind a register, talking to people I don't really like and hearing that Kelly talks about me behind my back. I try and leave and talk to John and Sophie, but get reprimanded for speaking with them as well. So I sit up at the register and talk to Luke and Hudson. Luke is quite the looker and I don't mind talking to him at all. Until I found out he hangs out with Evan. Evan who used to text me all the time, telling me how much he wants to hang out with me, but when he sees me he chokes and can't look in my eyes. Evan who wakes me up at 5 in the morning to hang out with me and when I'm at his house at 5 he can only ask me why I would ever be awake. Evan who is so shy that he can't talk to me unless there is a phone between us. What a fool.

Oh yeah. After kicking it with John at his house, Evan found out and freaked out. John was mad at me for awhile and now he is over it. What happened?

Oh and for school? I'm only going to be there for a few hours. Early dismissal after some Calc, some English and some Physical Education.

Oh AP Exams. You made my day quite swell.

5 on AP English
3 on U.S.

AP Scholar Yo.

I've already started procrastinating.
I mean, I haven't done one thing my mom told me to do today before leaving, I wanted to take a shower, didn't cook food, didn't do anything. It's great.
Leaving at about 4, be back late Sunday. I think it will be lovely.
Things started (ended?) on a weird note, but I guess everything will turn out okay. I don't know how things are going to be next year at school, friends-wise, but I'll worry about that September 1st.

Until then PARTY.

So school is finally out. With a bang. Don't really know what I'm going to do next year, or anytime this summer in fact. I don't know if anything will happen at all. I'm ready to work though. Every single day all day long. But, I guess I'll see Rhiannon soon I hope! I'm back in town on Wednesday and then I guess I will see what happens from there.

I feel so weird.

Edit: life is grand. Ask me about it.